Have you ever felt as though you had become so lost in your life that you couldn't even come up to breath from its depths? Right now I'm tackling my inner demons and thoughts. Do I do whats right for me? Should I be selfish and make myself happy for one of the first times in my life? Or do I hold onto something that is hurting me inside simply because I feel obligated to? Because I am too scared to hurt anyone?

I hate feeling this lost and confused in my life. I don't want to hurt anyone and I am terrified of things changing from what I've been so used to. This scares me to no end. I wish there was more I could say, but really, there is nothing else I can say...

All I know for sure is that teh stress, thoughts and anguish are making me mentally ill and now the emotional sickness is turning into physical sickness. I feel so run down and alone in my thoughts that I am slowly dying here. I have no true outlets because I don't know how to tell anyone or talk to them about my particular problem. As for the source...they know, but what happens when you can't change how you feel or how things have already changed in your heart due to their actions? How do I go back in time and feel how I did before? How do I mend a heart in pieces and learn to care the same as I did before? How do I do this after so much neglect and loneliness?

I'm afraid and my fear is driving me. HOw do I make my choice? How do I decide my entire future on the flip of a switch? You'd think this simple yes or no question would be so much simplier, but its so much more complicated and difficult then anyone can ever know until they've been through it.

I think, more then any kind words or helping hands, I simply need support right now; support in knowing that whatever choice I make is the right one and that I have people here for me on the other end no matter which end I come out of. THAT is what I need most.

Goodbye for now.

-Danielle





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